It’s either one or the other, time or money. Inclination however, is always there, but I have a feeling that if I don’t do something about it soon, even that might dwindle. I don’t want to be the working stiff who lives from payday to payday anymore. And it’s not as if I splurge on stuff. There’s my son’s allowance and rent up in Baguio, groceries for the house, utilities. I totalled those up once and wondered how I even managed to live from payday to payday, because there’d be nothing left for operational expenses. Definitely nothing left for obx vacation rentals. I’ve had to force myself to think up ways that I can get around the city to take pictures on the cheap. I can’t even go out of town with what I have.

Some people tell me I can go out of town without having to spend a centavo, and that is if I organize an out-of-towner for a group and charge them enough to cover my own expenses. But one thing I learned from going out with a group I organize is I never get to shoot properly, because I’m too busy making sure the rest of the group do.

Right now only a radical change will work. I’m working on that.